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Wow, it's been over a year since I've wrote on this thing. I apologize for my lack of writing, I have not had the desire to do so for a long time. I should update here: May 27, 2009 I had my first boyfriend. And I came to know and love him more than any other guy than I've ever known. He is an amazing man, he is also anal, annoying and somewhat abrasive. But I love him. And I ended our relationship March 15, 2010. I know that I shouldn't be the one weeping uncontrollably tonight. But he sent me an e-mail telling me that he was cutting all contact with me until the fall. It's like my heart broke all over again. I know that I should care about him enough to let him go, because I'm the one who broke his heart. I know all these things. And yet, I feel like something isn't right. My heart rebels at the idea of not getting to talk to him for four months. I hope this feeling will go away, I know that I did the right thing by not being with him anymore. But I did break my own heart once, and now it's broken again, after it was starting to piece itself back together. My God, when will this hurt go away? 1 4 3